Just Breathe

Thursday, after a long day, I was finally leaving work.  I pulled out my phone and saw 7 missed texts from Matt.  My heart stopped, I knew something terrible happened.  When I saw one of the bottom ones, I realized that it was that he lost his job.  I was relieved.  I was so terrified in those .3 seconds that I did not know what had happened, that something had happened to Asher, or Valerie or Matt.  I was relieved that it was "only" his job.  For a couple hours.  Since then, the tears have fallen. 

We have been here before, but it is horrifying.  Please be in prayer for us to figure things out and be ok.  We have already been through so much, and I thought, we had actually endured it well.  I just don't know what to think right now.  I am putting my faith in God and trying to not be afraid.  Fear is no good.