Take THAT

One of my colleagues at work said "My whole life has been turned upside-down" to me today because she saw me sad (almost in tears, I walked away before any appeared though), and I said to her "Well, my life is so "effed" up right now." She said,  "I know you did not say it, but you are thinking the real "F" word and that just turns my whole world-upside down."  She always comments on my happy demeanor and how I like every person I meet... Well...

I don't want her world upside-down.  It is time to get a move on... and hopefully, upward.

Things have been the lowest of low for the last two weeks.  I would get into it, but it would be a long, long post and I don't want to think about it any more than I already have because that time is now lost to me and it was spent sadly.

There are good things happening:
Our new home is beautiful and much easier to heat/cool- I suppose the 25 foot celings are not so good for that, eh.

Asher's fall/winter is packed away and I will be making a KILLING on his wardrobe at the end of the summer.  I have so many awesome things I get to pass on to another mom who likes to dress their son well.

Valerie is loving her newly decorated and located room- even without a TV.  We decided to not put her dresser in her new room and her book shelf is too narrow for the tube TV.  Where we will put it remains an issue...

My room looks fantastic and is 2 times as big and I do miss my jacuzzi every day, but I will get over it.

I got called in by the CFI and told that "JMU is lucky to have you" what a relief.  The students are seeing that I do, in fact care about them and their learning.

PCR for micro and genetics was a success, now to see about sequences.

I am have been promoted and am now officially making per year what I set out to make when I graduated from UVA.  It is not a lot by medical Dr or lawyer standards, but I am doing ok.
Woot.

I will figure out a solution to a car.

I realize that I may have not been my best self recently, but I have also been pushed beyond reasonable limits.  I take responsibility for my actions and regard the extremity as a reasonable response to the blog stalking (hi Anna and Maurice!), fake Facebook profile (AKA Sara Gilden of "Mary Baldwin" who has since deleted her profile on the same day it was made), certified (bogus) letters to my home and work place, and taking my car and my belongings while I was at work during a 10 hour work day.  Coming out and seeing my car gone, having no way to pick up my baby, having no car seat, and having my purse stolen- then having to wait outside 2.5 hours for them to be brought to me by someone I specifically told my ex-husband to not bring pushed me over the edge.  End of story.  I do, in fact have limits, I can not take and take and take.  I now know that for the first time in my life.   That I have limits makes me human, nothing less.