Thinking about Thoughts

This certainly is food for thought. Thank you, Evey-Peevy!

"You can't connect the dots looking forward, you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something. . . because believing that the dots will connect down the road, will give you the confidence to follow your heart, even when it leads you off the well-worn path, and that will make all the difference."

Sometimes I have such frustration with trials. Honestly, it feels like there are more trials that most people (combined) in my life. It has actually always been that way. I have felt pretty frustrated with the beat-down I have had. I always end up better for it at the end. Always. I suppose part of me is like "I would rather be like Steve Jobs than Pollyanna" but... enough, already!

Seriously. It is ok. One other thing that has been sort of a turn off actually caused tears to spring to my eyes tonight as it was hit, squarely on the head. We have no cable right now, and even if we did, we don't get network TV. So, we watch things when they (finally) appear on Hulu if we can stomach the content if the reviews are not too raunchy. We watched Grey's Anatomy today and I LOVED it when Miranda firmly told a patient who refused to acknowledge sadness "You can be optimistic tomorrow!" Amen, Sister. We don't have to pretend. Goodness knows that it is a relief to get the hug you so desperately need when you let the tears fall. Hugs don't happen nearly as often as you need if you appear perfect. That's the truth. Anyway. Great speech, love this guy, I always have ;-) and he is right. Don't do things for long that you would not want to do during your last day on earth. I must say (again), I am so blessed with my work outside of the home. It is so, incredibly satisfying. As the semester has ended and students are getting used to relaxing, I have found myself getting letters, cards and emails from my students grateful for me. Sometimes, I feel that they and the 3 lucky people who live with me are the only ones I matter to (well, that I hear from) and you know... most of the time, that is enough to fill my cup.