Health... Issues...

No IDEA why pictures are sideways. They were taken in the normal orientation.


So I do not talk about this much because it really is not much fun for me... but today was just bizarre. I got up this morning and went to work EARLY. I felt realllllly weird the entire time. Light-headed, extremely nauseous and dizzy. It was so strange. I ended up getting done around ten and left.

I noticed the police officer behind me and did not think a whole lot about it... until the blue freaking lights went on. How MANY times (THREE SO FAR!!!) am I going to get pulled over for Matt not taking care of registration and inspections! It is unbelieveable. I was really trying to not be a brat about it, but I (of course) could not leave because we never have had the money to pay off my last ticket, so my license is suspended... and Matt took an hour to get me. Just a night mare so now I HAVE to appear in court for a huge fine for my license. That should be so wonderful. Then I had to wait for Matt to come get me. For some reason, that took a full hour. It should have been 10 minutes max.

I really was trying to be nice, but all I could do was cry. I am so tired of this. We do nothing, we go nowhere. I am not even supposed to "start" work until the 25 but HAVE to be there to get things where they need to be for the first week of classes and it is a lot of work... and I get a ticket doing that! It just upsets me more than I can explain.

So, now I am feeling REALLY bad after standing in the heat an hour (strangely the highlight of my day was NOT the horrifying wreck that happened right in front of me!)... then we try to take care of the registration, and we cant because we owe property taxes on our two worthless vehicles... ok mine is better, but there are issues... So then we drive BACK to my car, Matt gets in my car, and I hide behind the wheel of his (can you even IMAGINE)... and we drive home.

I realize quickly something is very wrong with Matt's car. It pulls terribly to the right and is REALLY NOISY! So we stop and I see the tread totally coming off his tire... truly, it is peeling right off. Super.

So THEN we have to go to Charlottesville and Asher has one diaper, so I have to go to (ain't NO WAY I am driving Matt's car to Target where we get his diapers). I am terrified the entire time about driving... PS I got child support today so that got Asher's diapers. I also have to get Valerie's school supplies. I am stressing OUT!

All the way home, I am terrified. Two police men get right behind me (and my expired tags) and I did not get pulled over. So grateful for that!

Anyway. All the while, I am having heart palpitations, dizziness, nausea. It is super-fun. I also have not eaten more than several popsicles and a bite of food in several weeks. If I eat solid food, I have to immeadiately run away. It wreaks HAVOC on my body. So I don't eat. The good news is of course I am loosing weight (surprisingly little for not eating, but I always knew there was more going on there than calorie consumption), but the bad news is I (literally) do not eat. It is super.

I finally sat on the bed this evening when I got the spinny feeling and next thing I knew, I closed my eyes and it was 2 hours later. I do not even remember trying to sleep.

Tomorrow I have to go in early again and am actually meeting a couple people, so I am making Matt drive me. I am scared (TERRIFIED!) to drive.

Well, the sunset was nice again. So that was a reminder, but I am going to say, the faith is running low.